See Me... With Peace Through the Process & Not Cancer

It has been a while since I've last written, exactly one month and one day. It hasn't been because I've given up, it was because I couldn't think of anything to write about, not to say, things have been grand.

Since I've last written, I've gotten back into being motivated in working out consistently. Wait for it.......
I've lost another 5 pounds, making my total weight loss since April, 28 pounds!!

The last 5 pounds were not easy because my work load increased at work, my involvement in church increased and I went through something scary with my health. So now, you might be asking yourself, LaWanda what does your blog title have to do with your weight loss milestone?

Not too long after I began blogging, my emotional journey became my hardest journey. Based on the increase number of those who read my emotional posts, I'm not the only one who is on a tough emotional journey. However, several months ago I heard the words, "Peace Through the Process". At the time, I was at a good place. I had decided to work on restoring a relationship with my dad, I decided to no longer invest my time in a relationship that was meaningless, and I was in a comfortable place in executing God's vision for my life.

Fast forward to Sept. 6 and I wake up with a really bad earache in my left ear, on Sept. 7 it's in both ears and my throat is sore. I make an appointment with my primary care doctor and she tells me that I have a double ear infection and my right thyroid is enlarged. [Side note: She is very impressed that I have lost 23 pounds since my visit in April.] She immediately sends me to have a CT Scan done of my neck. Less than an hour later, she calls to tell me that indeed my thyroid is enlarged and she wants me to have an ultrasound done. Two days later, I have an ultrasound done and it shows a 4.5 cm lump on my thyroid, which she describes as the size of a golf ball and she's concerned because it could be cancer. She refers me to an Ear, Nose & Throat doctor for a biopsy.

I have lost several family members to various kinds of cancer in the last year and a half, so this could have did me in, but it didn't. Instead, I found PEACE THROUGH THE PROCESS. My family, friends, and co-workers held me in prayer and made sure I was okay.

Three days later, I went to see the ENT for a consultation and unexpectedly, he decided to go ahead and do the biopsy. Here I am, sitting in the exam room by myself (because I thought it was just a consultation) with no family or friends and yet, I found PEACE THROUGH THE PROCESS. He completes the VERY painful biopsy and tells me he will call with the results in two days.

I go through the weekend and attend a blood drive at my church on Saturday, teach children's ministry on Sunday and besides people asking me about the spot on my neck, I don't think about the fact that I am waiting to hear whether the lump on my thyroid is cancerous... PEACE THROUGH THE PROCESS. It is actually 6 days before I hear from the doctor that the lump isn't cancer and he DOES NOT have to do surgery. (Yes, you read that right, 6 WHOLE DAYS & I WAS STILL AT PEACE)

Since that time, the meaningless relationship tries to renew itself, which I still deny. I find out that my dad is moving away, which is bittersweet and yet I still find PEACE THROUGH THE PROCESS and lose the 5 additional pounds.

One reason I share this story is because with all that I went through in the last 3 weeks, I did not retreat to my old habits of turning to food especially junk food and carbs and I did not give up going to the gym.

If you are on a personal journey to a healthier mind, body and soul the key is do not give up, fight and find PEACE THROUGH THE PROCESS!